Monday, February 20, 2006

Another "one-of-those-days"

Did anyone miss me? I just realised I haven't been blogging for a week, oh, exactly one week. Not bad. And all the while, I thought I've not been blogging for, I don't know, a few weeks? Time really flies by, yet, I feel as though time passes by really slowly. That's how I feel today. Maybe that's because I was in my room watching a whole lot of television dramas. Dear me.

It's really true how you stay in your room the whole day, and start thinking about other things. For me, it's always bad things. I mean, things that are depressing, so to say. Today, I think it's the after-effect of watching a chinese series. Damn. The ending was so sad, I started thinking of the things that would have happened AFTER the ending. Yes, the ending was a sudden one. It didn't end properly. And I started thinking about the things that should have happened instead. I started complaining why the creators just couldn't make anymore happy endings. See how much I can think about when I have nothing to do, and stuck with someone in my room who doesn't talk to me, cares only about himself (applicable only to me), and sticks to his computer all the time.

I had fun yesterday. At least I had something to do, instead of staying in my room for the whole day doing nothing. I had nothing to do. Well, I should say I was reluctant to do any work today. You know, I wanted to do something productive, though my intuition just told me to relax and do nothing. What kind of intuition is that?? Damn. It wouldn't have been called intuition if it's that bad. It should have been called the 'devil'.

How I wish to be at home, where I really felt like home. Hey, I had a grip of myself when I came back to the university. I no longer felt that homesick, compared to the 1st term. Haha, maybe it's just for today. I guess if I go to bed, I'll forget about it tomorrow. Everything will return to normal.

Nothing new, huh? Yeah. Here I go again. My evil twin is unleashed. I believe that I have a twin inside me. One good, one bad. At times, if I'm really happy, it's the good one. Otherwise, it'll be the bad one. It's hard to control myself sometimes. My best friend had seen the horrible side of me. And it's not something worth seeing. I guarantee it not a pleasant sight. Trust me.

I'm kidding. I would never show it too clearly. I don't like letting others feel my pain and sufferings at that instant. You can trust me on this. ;)

Friday, February 10, 2006

PMS

Have you ever seen a child throw a tantrum? He would just go angry, either cry about it, get all pouted, or literally 'throw a tantrum', right? I'm sure it's also common amongst teenagers. Speaking of which, I'm still a teenager! Haha... Opps, a few more months till I become a 'youth'! Damn it! Haha...

Back to my story. I was quite moody today, since I stepped out of my door, for some unknown reason. I had been quite unlucky today too. I hope this has nothing to do with any foresights; that'll be scary. It's like, this morning, I had a gastric pain all of a sudden. I don't know whether IT's there, or just because I'm hungry. I was taking some prescription, a medicine for some skin problem. I stopped taking it because it always gives me gastric pains. But since I have already stopped taking it, then why am I still having gastric pains? Another instance is that all my fruits had gone bad. I mean, they're supposed to be OK today, since today IS the expiry date, right?? Hehe... Maybe it's my misunderstanding, but it doesn't always happen to expire ON the day which is written on the pack, right? It writes "Best Before", so obviously it would be be 'best' eaten 'before' the date, but it doesn't happen to go bad ON the day right? Oh well...

The Verdict is in. My friend talked me into going to Malaysian Night. But I made her go to Birmingham with me *grins*. Haha. I had to go somewhere to take a breather. I think I'm almost going nuts trying to finish assignments every week. Not to forget tests coming for the coming weeks. Geez... Anyway, I will have to company her to the event too. I feel quite bad for not going since she's already here, and she'd be alone without knowing anybody else in the university. Poor her.

It's already 1.27am, and I have a lecture at 12pm tomorrow. I'm not sleeping yet! That's a revolution. I had a nap this afternoon, which usually deters me from sleeping early at nights. That's why I don't usually nap in the afternoons. Bad idea, Alex... Now I have to wait till I feel sleepy. Wait, I think I'm already feeling it... Woo-hoo! Finally get to sleep....

Alrighty then... Good night!

Wednesday, February 08, 2006

Intrusion

It's funny how a blog is used to write everything we have experienced, and would've wanted to keep everything read among people that I know; and now, everything is exposed, not anymore a private space of my own.

I'm speechless at this moment. I was really, really angry with 'funny' people last week, but now not anymore. I want to write something here, but I'm afraid of weird people reading my posts again.

Hmmm... Right.. Malaysian Night is coming. I'm not going. Why? Long Story. Not planning to tell too. Because the whole reason that I'm not going is due to the 'stupidity' of people. Hmmm. I'm right. Why should I care what they say about me? Just as long as I believe in myself, am I not right? I own the rights to have freedom of speech. Law'yers' our there, hear me out! Haha..

So I was forced to go for the night event. Just because my friend is going, and there won't be anyone to company them. Guess what? I was also offered a free ticket just because of my friend. Oh well... I'm as stubborn as a donkey. If I say I won't go, I won't go.

So I guess I'll be alone in my room again on this Saturday. Always alone.

Valentine's Day is coming soon. Too bad it falls on a Tuesday. It's a pity I still am single. If not, I wouldn't have been this pessimistic. (Haha.. Excuses, excuses..)

Love... Oh, this word just reminds me of a poem I wrote LONG ago... Brings back the memories. Hehe....