Would I describe today like a scene where a couple decides to break up, and the worst thing is, it's the guy who is being dumped, not the girl? In addition to that, it coincidentally rains heavily after held hands are broken, and the girl walks in the other direction, leaving the guy upset with anger and pain. Well, I feel it that way.

No one cares. That is reality. I have to say, I'm not in reality. I hate being in the real world. Nobody cares. Like I said, who would like to live in a world where it is filled with hate and greed? Nobody cares.

Friends treat you like dirt, when all that matters to me are them. I've been in so many undesirable situations when I was made to be so disappointed, and the worst thing is, they're all the people that I care about and value so much. I don't see why they just don't notice this at all. I know, I shouldn't take things too seriously. I should kiss and make up, and forget about it all. I don't keep things to heart, and so, if I'm not happy, I'll forget about it soon, which is something that I learnt from my family.

I just don't get it. Are the inhabitants of this puny planet that ignorant after so many years of advancements of technology? Or is this my fate? A fate which I am destined to not have friends and to live alone throughout my life? No one that I can share my love with, that I must live a bachelor till my death? The thought of this just makes me want to kill myself.

I love the company of people, just anyone. The indecisiveness in me just contradicts everything. Well, I do like it when I'm with friends, but I don't like it in a big group. I feel really suffocated. Consequently, I'll be left out in most of the conversations. Maybe that's because I like to be the centre of attraction, but I don't want too much of it. Just typing that just makes me wanna puke. How can I be saying such things? I should be strong in my sentences. I'm so weak.

I don't personally like people who, like what one of my friend told me once, "puts on a mask whenever you are around them". I didn't really understand what my friend meant by that, practically, but now it became perfectly clear that friends all around me were all like this.

I don't mean to harm anybody's feelings, but I'm being honest here. Well, I was tempted to be 'honest' with one of my friends here in Uni, so now I'm being honest. For all I know, truth hurts. It sucks so badly to be me. What have I gotta do to get some love 'ere?

Believe it or not, I was blurry eyed when I was being told off by my friend this evening. For many reasons. I don't want to list them all out here. I know my post is getting really boring. But anyway, who would even bother? Nobody leaves comments here. Nobody even bothers to read my blog. So what's the point of not writing it all out?? But it's cuz I've been "bitten once (, twice shy)".

Cheers to the cruel world that I'm living on now, and to all the people to don't care. Have a f***ing nice day.