Sometimes, when you feel like a pile of shit lying on the floor, and passers-by just trample on you and step on you, how would you feel? I've felt this a million times. When oppurtunity hits, you just miss it. There had to be someone, or something, to bring you down. When there's a chance, someone, or something, had to ruin it. When you know there's something, or someone, that is meant to be yours for your well-being, or your asset in life, it would just seem to get farther and farther until it is out of reach. You wouldn't give up. You run and run, till you finally see your future, and suddenly it disappears. You kneel down, proclaiming that you're so out of breath. All you think about is what you have just lost, and will never see again. Tears start forming in your eyes till your sight starts to blur out. You feel insecure, lonely, afraid, useless, etc. But you finally realise that whatever had happened had long passed and gone. Why bother to think back, when there's so much ahead waiting for you? Then you stand on your own two feet, and start walking (aimlessly) back to where you started.
This is what I have been experiencing all my life (till now of course. I'm not that old yet! =P). Its as tho everything is so blur, and there's too many things i have left behind, left undone. I don't feel complete yet. I'm starting to realise that all I have done were completely useless. Ups and downs. Success and failure. It seems nothing is ever right in this world. Nobody cares, everybody just walks pass, just like the video clips where you see the main vocalist stand in the middle of the rain while all the others hurries by pass him/her.
Sighs, it's been a while since i've been have to express myself this way. I should write more stories here. not real ones, just morbid ones that would accidently come across my head. Pure imagination. Cool? =)
